Pediatrician.Will it be?

what a weird photo, isn't it? just ignore my faceT-T

Assalamu'alaikum!

Such a veeeerry long time I haven't been here. Last time I posted, I was still a mid-year student in highschool. And once I come back here, I've been in my senior year in high school, Oh, no. I even have passed a term in my senior year. There's only about 4 months that I have to study in High school. The rest is, I have to continue to the college.

College.

When I was in middle school (junior high school) I felt like I got what my goal is. I got where do I have to walk to, what do I have to do, or something else. I got everything in my mind. Really. Like I went to the high school for the first time, like my friends asked me what your life goal was, I could answer them easily. I said I want to be an English teacher. And I thought that was a final decision, while that was not.

Senior year makes me see the reality. Making me regret everything in the past. Making me soooo in a quandary. Making me feel like "Oh, come on. I wish I had been married now". Making me fall into pessimistic.

I have or maybe had. But I think.. I still have it. Yes. I have a future goals as a doctor. Especially pediatrician. The funny thing is, it is my childhood's (or everyone's because I think every kid wants to be a doctor) dream that I've been buried for such a long time. And this dreamy thing came back to my mind and made me enthusiastic in my school's life. Proven by my excellent biology score. 

That future goals pushed ahead me to do my best. Alhamdulillah.

But, as you can see in the previous paragraph, 

Senior year makes me see the reality.

It's not that a piece of cake to be a pediatrician. I should've made a great effort to reach that. And...

I SHOULD REALIZED IT EARLIER... haha galau banget ya tulisan gue jadinya.

So, without wasting my time anymore, I should get up and try to fix it all. Maybe, if I were not lucky enough to pass the SNMPTN, I would do the SBMPTN instead, for it. "We will prepare for SBMPTN together", he said. And, as you can guess, it built again my spirit to reach that dream!!!! yeay!

Anyway, that boy is now in his umroh to Mecca! He just sent me a bbm that he's now in Madinah and said.... "Di sini bagus banget masjidnya kapan-kapan kamu harus ikut!:*"

AAMIIN

That's all deh! Sorry yaa for the anti climax! Haha ketauan bukan penulis soalnya.....  ngelesdotkom

Have a good result, tomorrow!

(pembagian rapor semester 5kuT______T)

mwaaa!